Rat Inside

            Amy McCauley

I’m thinking about Anne Sexton’s
awful rowing toward god
and how a poem is an accident waiting to happen
and how I don’t believe anybody
doesn’t want to be understood and how
poets love to say and how – and how – and how
astonishedconfusedembarrassed I am by the fact of being alive
and how unnervingly smitten the world is
and how any theory of poetry is inevitably a theory of silence
the way any theory of disgust is inevitably a theory of desire and how
the awful rowing toward god goes on goes on goes on goes on goes on goes on et cetera.


Amy McCauley is the author of three publications: Oedipa (Guillemot Press, 2018), 24/7 Brexitland (No Matter Press, 2020) and Propositions (Monitor Books, 2020). Amy has published poetry in a range of magazines including Magma, Poetry Wales, The Rialto, The Stinging Fly and The White Review.